A moment to remember

hurt

2009-02-22T23:09:00.003+08:00

hopefully time will heal all wounds.
i need to stand on my feet again.

cute doggie!

2009-02-20T19:47:00.003+08:00

went to cmpb today. i didn't know clerks were so rude. omg! look at urself. who are you to even threaten or raise ur voice at me. even ur sirs were much polite than you are. went through all e medic stations, was pretty fast not veri crowded. however blood test was done damn slow. i dunno why my blood doesn't want to come out. allergic to needles i guess. haha.

after everything was done. i was given PES C! haha, i dunno wad it means though. but i've not heard of my friends getting tt alphabet. went for e IQ test. i suddenly felt smart aft it. i manage to ans alot of qns. LOL. esp those memorising one.

i guess my enlistment letter will come pretty soon alr. it's time to get in. time to make new friends. haha. my hse have been pretty lively with lix arnd!! so active. and so cute. a friend of mine just bought some apparels for him. haha see how he looks like!!

THIS IS MY LIX!!!!!!

cny

2009-02-02T01:15:00.004+08:00

CNY has so far been great! got together with my family members and friends.. went to e river hong bao thingy.. haha it was nice.! lightings and food! oh and i juz got a new PUP! maltese.. heh heh.. my little cute boy! hes 10 mths old alr though.. haha.. so so playful and snores at night! lol. he loves e cushion i bought for him! but hes still quite fragile now! yea..

i love my 2 darlings!

breaker

2009-01-10T02:43:00.003+08:00

so wad if i'm tryin my best to keep my promise.
U can't even keep a simple one.

-why should i bother now-

.u suck big time.

sweet

2009-01-06T16:10:00.002+08:00

the overcrowded mambo night!

sweet eve dinner

okie well xmas eve was well spent with my close friends. had steamboat at my place! delicious!!
was a nice cozy small gathering. ha else i guess i'd have to be alone again. as usually all are with their family having dinner. went on a short holiday to KL and genting, was suppose to go bangkok but close again. so well as long as i leave sg it'll be fine. did lots of shopping! bargaining seems to be one of my talent! haha. spent NY eve in genting. love the weather. cold but nice. one bad thing. i brought a camera but it failed me there. sadded!

xmas party

2008-12-24T01:08:00.005+08:00

tis few days have been greatly spent!! last sat was justtheclique's xmas party and yup it was lots of fun and gossiping!! hhaa.. was held at ritz carlton hotel! on e freaking 28th floor! e view's way superb.. spending there alone with ur loved one will be sweet perfect! all of thm had lots of alcohol drinking while i stayed out of it. else my day's gone. evryone soon fell aslp by 4am! left me winfield vinc and wey still surviving.. so we shared lots of stuffs. by 8am we decided to get our lazy ass up and go for breakfast at qiji at marina sq. and head hm aft tt! FREAKING DAMN TIRED!!

r/s complicated?

2008-12-18T23:05:00.004+08:00

hmmm is having a relationship tt complicated?

Isn't trust, faith, loyalty and communication all that is needed?

PISCES

The months ahead could start with a welcome improvement in terms of work or school, and in terms of romance, as you’ll become a little more realistic in your goals. The need for positive thinking will crop up, as you’ll tend towards feeling moody and unappreciated around June, but this will be temporary. Financially, this is a good year with plenty of opportunities for growth if you invest wisely and carefully. Watch that you don’t over indulge yourself towards the end of the year: balance the demands of work or school with a need for fun. However, you’ll be able to rely on a friend to keep you on the straight and narrow!

GEMINI

Shifting influences may well bring about a shift in perspective, almost from the start of the week: you could get the sense that one ongoing matter is slipping from your control. Be a little chameleon like, because being adaptable will make the transition a lot easier. Instead of battling against the changes, blend; go with the flow. Don’t try and hang on to what is unimportant!

moments

2008-12-18T20:04:00.004+08:00

C.U.T.E

camera obssession

e murderers!

adorable!

Remember bout my much antcipated zoo trip!? haha yea it was damn fun.. there was slight drizzle tt day, but it soon became a good breezy weather.

these are e few pics, there are alot but lazy to wait. haha

i haven't been to e bird park yet!!!

oh oh went to mambo ytd! freaking overly crowded. but it was still fun. manage to get into phuture later.. songs were great!! but in e end left me, winfield and melvin.

we walked all e way to lido e mac there for breakfast and took e first bus hm.

*tired*

coolio

2008-12-14T20:09:00.003+08:00

OH HELL YEAH!! my beloved holidays........ I'M LOVING IT! went to town ytd to have dinner with winfield and jake and eric.. haha wanted to catch e movie TWILIGHT aft dinner, but things happen to crop up so we gave it a miss.. haha but went hm and played mj instead.. haha.. dun say tt its gambling. apart from e money used. its actually a fun memory game!!

argh i'm beginning to have double skin tone colour alr.. dammit! can e rain pls SHOO~~ and i'll make a trip to sentosa and get my colour back.. haha.. i so can't wait for tmr.. am going to e ZOO! haha, mel wanted to bring her tuition kids so i tagged along too ahha..

its gonna be a fun day!! =)

i love to club

2008-12-11T22:27:00.004+08:00

haha i suddenly love CLUBBING again!! now i know why friends are great influence lol..

club again this weekend or next......................wed! MAMBO

hehe

2008-12-10T19:18:00.003+08:00

why so serious?

goli loves me!

jiawei's bday. haha nw thn upload

isn't he adorable!!

ric & lu

artistic eh!

studying is getting quite bored. im juz trying memorising everything.
some can msg me
"i end my paper alr lets go out and hav fun!"

-_-"

this thurs and fri is my paper.

i'm meeting e clique more often now.
i see myself clubbing more than usuals.
but still can't take alcohol.
i saw a dog at e pet shop. damn gian to get it.
oh and im going to e zoo nxt wk with mel! hurray!!i wan to see tt infamous white tiger!
maybe i shld tell him
"u ate e wrong guy. ur food is at e construction site. loads of it."

clubbing

2008-12-09T02:21:00.003+08:00

when u study too long and get sick of it, i'll start doing meaningless things, like chnging skin of my blog. haha. oh well. i finally managed to catch up with someof the clique pple. and its realli true. pple do change. some drastically. i wonder to myself, do they feel anything in e process? went to mambo on wed! uber FUN! i initially went with jon and mel.. but ltr met e some of e clique peeps! and SERENE! shes back.

had so much fun. was with mel and jon first and thn i went join winfield and e rest. haha. e way all of them met was so awkward ha. lazy to type here. after leavin. LOUSY MEL PUKED! haha. i drank coke so okie. lol. on e same wk went club on e wkend again with e clique pple! damn fun. but was freaking HOT! got forced to drink some ewwy taste alcohol. *yuck* dunno y ppl enjoy it. maybe their taste buds not wrking alr. left e club at 4 i tink. me melvin winfield and tis friend of theirs went to hav supper at hk cafe. so eat eat eat. soon aft e friend and melvin fell aslp. me and winfield talked. leavin e place at like 7am!! haha i reached hm *collapse*

sad me

2008-10-16T16:50:00.003+08:00

my beloved spiky is gone. if u don noe who is spiky. its my dog! well its not dead. just tt i had to give it up. dad suggested to tie him up at a tree and call e spca to collect it. or even to juz set it free like tt.. i'm juz not realli into tt idea. so i asked my dad to drive me to gombak private estates there. e one beside e civil defence. and i walked my dog in pressing e doorbells of every households which has small breed dogs to try asking them whether they can take in another dog. after 4 houses e 5th finally accepted. she has 3 dogs alr. but she has a big garden so yea, tts e last thing i can do for him. to give him a better life for his last few yrs. take care. u'll always be remembered.

i love u

now tt he's gone. i'm still not quite used to it. my house has been rather quiet. and guess wad. when i came hm earlier aft opeing e door i still whistled for him. . .

he's staying with e family at e house unit of 79.

2008-08-20T00:35:00.002+08:00

time to juz jot somethings dwn. i'm having my last paper later at 9am.. haha. 11am will be e start of my holidays.. now a student. holidays - - a Teacher hahaha! yup.. im giving tuition as well as being a relief teacher at st. Anthony primary sch.! haha.. my use-to-be best friend's sch.. LOL! and also i'll be at e I.T fair end of tis mth.

i have plenty to say within me.
i'm startin to stray.

1yr 4mths and counting.

happy moments

2008-06-11T00:00:00.005+08:00

all i can say to date is...

THIS JUNE HAD STARTED OFF GREAT!!!

my 21st birthday!!HAHA

well went to take e singapore flyer at night.. it was awesome! and we were guessing which building is wad.. haha cos practically can see evrything all e way to EAST COAST!! wow~

went clubbing, and indeed e music is much better! ahaa.. had great fun.. had barbecue at east coast park.. took a lil time to start off the fire.. cos e sea breeze was way too STRONG!

and as expected oni partial ppl of e clique wld turn up. altho some expected ppl din turn up at all.. oni to hear those usual excuses.

anyway..

e food was realli gd.. esp e prawns mann.. haha.. we bbq all e way till 4am.. gosh.. was totally burned out by thn.. had so much to share with each other.. and oh oh i love all e prezzies thx alot guys! juz exactly wad i needed.. haha and o sat went down to my grandpa's place, cos they wanted to celebrate my bday altho is belated..lol.. had dinner at tis chinese restaurant with all my relatives and stuff.. i received 600 bucks from thm!! SO HAPPY!! but.......

they say its a tradition tt e 21st birthday boy need to treat dinner.. *I FREAKING ROLL MY EYES* okie NVM! since i got so much money...

after dinner e bill came...

~sit on floor and cry~

$560

SOMEBODY JUST KILL ME

haha and ohh i cnt wait to go sebu kelong fishing tis weekend!!

and nxt weekend to tioman! huraay!!!!!

2008-05-29T00:51:00.002+08:00

will it all just finally lead to a break up.

just like the rest.

2008-05-28T15:44:00.002+08:00

my life is in a mess.

i've ended up with nth now

aimless future again

2008-05-15T01:03:00.002+08:00

hahaha all e candid shots we took while waiting for bus!! LOL.. ohoh i juz received a uob card saying e old tx card is discontinued alr.. nw tis card can act as a debit card, atm card and EZ-LINK card. how lame!! too many card to give out issit!

well been bowling quite alot lately got back my touch somehow. time to start using my skills to earn money alr.. haha.. *tink back to those days* but whenever i bowl at e interclub every wk... i'm always veri fascinated by hook bowlers.. e style realli nice. but lane condition not nice. score like shit. i dunmind chnging to hook actually. but e feeling of starting all over again is damn sianz.. and oh... national age group championships starting soon alr.. hope i can repeat history and win back my titles.. heh heh!! haven't been out with justtheclique for quite some time alr...

they muz be !#!#$#%#%$^^&^%$ so much tt my ear itch alot.. *stares hard at jane* hahaa

owell better meet her soon before she leaves..

uncertainty

2008-03-29T00:52:00.002+08:00

sometimes you give me this uncertainty. It just always pops out from nowhere. Is it me being over sensitive. Or actually theres just nothing wrong. Sometimes i find it so hard to get the connection. You once told me "life's not like a bed of roses". There are good and bad times. But are bad times really needed. Everything is fine. I'm just saying how i feel. I can sense like there is something wrong. But is there really anything. I don't like to play this hidden feeling game. Just pour out anything thats not right. I don't believe nothing can be settled.

and to a friend of mine : don't always think so highly of yourself. if you're trying to be confident i think you're over doing it. have some humble pie.

2008-03-24T01:19:00.005+08:00

well last wk was pretty well spent.. celebrated eric's bday and the clique's 1 yr anni.. haha.. and it all happened at sentosa! veri enjoyable indeed.. spent ample time together.. but 1 thing wasn't in favour to us. e dumb dumb weather!! aarrghhh i realli enjoyed the pool place.. waterfalls, trees, sun, jacuzzi... so temptation island feeling! lol.. shall upload all those pics soon..haha.. had so much volleyballing and swimming.. i wan more more!! honey baby more pls!!

strip dai di.. SIMPLY HOT!

as days past.

2008-03-07T00:40:00.002+08:00

well did i mention tt i'm tuitioning a primary 4 student now.. well yea.. teachin him eng, maths and sci.. and wow their standard of sci are realli much higher thn wad i've learnt whn i'm at their age. life is pretty boring nw. trying to get a job for e day time as well. as for nw. mon and wed having squash trainings. tues and thurs try to pull myself go swim and at nite tuition. fri sat and sun on the rocks. nxt wk would be an impt wan. spent the whole day today to plan. i realli hope it works out well. many ppl arnd me are talking bout cars nw. i felt rather uneasy or perhaps not in place. i'm juz not meant to drive. i dunno wad i realli want now. i've got my love life. i've got everything a normal kid would have. i hav my sports. wads my goal. ( ?? )

feling much better

2008-03-04T01:24:00.002+08:00

well i'm feeling much better now. after ranting to some of my close friends and dear one. guess there are still people who still cares for me. and it doesn't make me feel tt i'm alone in this shit. thx. well things seem to be quite fine still. had my first inter club league at warrens on last monday night.. too my astonishment, i bowled not bad i tink. aft so long not been training. we defeated keppel club 5-0!! woohoo.. my club celebrated.. and nw i realli noe how does an anchor bowler feels. realli STRESSED UP! and oh oh how could i not mention bout the weekends which actually refers to friday having more sentimental values.. sat and sun friendship. and i watched MEET THE SPARTANS like twice!! haha and i laugh damn hard.. esp the nipple part.. LOL. today went to sch early for squash training.. gotta start training hard if i still wan to be in the sch team.. who knows some rising star from yr 1 might juz knock me out. brrr... and tutoring is a veri big deal of patience test! and if i master it..............

no more arguments!! yippie!!! =)

lonely

2008-02-26T07:59:00.002+08:00

well i juz ended my mahjong game. it's 7.59am nw. i'm realli feeling kinna depressed. tt father of mine is juz so obvious he wans to stop the responsibility he has towards me asap. if i doesn't need his support on financial. i would hav long ago ignored him. he has alr lost my respect towards him since the day i've found out he had a 2nd wife. to think he accused my mum on adultery and unfaithfulness. and to even spread it to the relatives. but in fact he is the mastermind. call urself a man. you're seldom with me from childhood till now. so dun assume u noe me tt well. u said i dun like study. ya its true. but i still perservered on till tis stage. at least i did not follow ur step of stopping at sec lvl. wadever the reason might. u made me hav a broken family. threatening me my allowance. no father would do such thing. u said ur tight in hand. but u can buy a dog, 2birds. revamp the whole f* hse. change all furnitures. and u can give me tis shit. all u hav to do is support my studies till i enter ns. once i'm enlisted. u dun hav to f* bother bout me anymore. u can treat tt u dun hav such a son. juz concentrate on ur wonderful daughter. aft wad mum told me. i've nv expected u to be so scheming. ur realli mentally unstable. aft yrs of marriage with ur wife and with a daughter. u can still msg my mum middle of the night to ask bout tt fella's no. whom u tink had an affair with my mum. wads the f* problem with u. if thers nth wrong bring ur wife to visit ur relatives. y always hide. its all cos of ur f* face. men like u shld juz be extinct. since u'll juz be regarded as bastards. no words can describe the hatred in me now. u tink u noe me so well. try findin the last secret. it will be a blow to u.

closure

2008-02-24T01:12:00.002+08:00

it happened again. all i wan is a little more attention and care. wad i realli nv ever wan to hear is to be compared to ur ex. it felt horrible. so wadever gd times and bad times are juz similar to when ur with ur past. u weren't any happier thn tt. i felt a total failure. i know certain words shldn't be said. maybe i wasn't thinking properly in tt mood. it made me felt worst when i feel tt ur starting to give up frm ur tone. at tt point of time i felt like taking back my words. but i noe its too late. e damage has alr been done. i'll juz hav to bear e consequences. i'm juz childish in handling matters. ur right. everything shld juz cease for a moment. to allow time for us to think bout it. whether is there a future.

when a vase has been broken, no matter how its patched back, it'll nv look e same anymore.

take care.

envious

2008-02-15T01:00:00.002+08:00

while walking past glass window restaurants, couples dining in on a candlelite dinner just made me so envious. everywhere was practically filled with couples today. I thought 2008's vday would juz pass me like any other days. but thx ivan. thx for e companion. =)