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Wednesday, January 30, 2008

i've finished my disastrous wed!! cos why?

2 reports
2 presentations
1 test

all up today.. and i've finally went through it. a huge sigh of relieve
but dunno why i'm in e same mood as before. it suddenly seems like my life is so aimless.
yesterday after a long day of chionging all the assignments. went home and went to clementi there the fish shop with fee. cos the fish shop there doesn't close. haha. bought a huge pkt containing 50 pieces of neon tetras. guess the price. ONLY 6bucks! so very worthwhile. and main item to be bought was the lighting for the fish tank. shopped there till 12+am haha. missed last bus and train. took cab hm. no choice. settled the fish on the water of my tank. installed the light. released them awhile ltr. lights on. omg. its really spectacular! just so pleasant to the eyes. now i really understand what fish owners used to tell me, their really quite true. looking at fishes makes u feel more calm and ease stress and sadness. like suddenly all the problems are gone. but of cos its juz awhile. but still. better thn nothing. all i hope for now is only squashy.

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where are you.

Ended my post @ 1/30/2008 04:16:00 PM

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

ermm wad can i say, it has realli been quite hard for me passing these few days. is it like some form of mental test for me? or just trying to see how much faith i have. been trying to keep myself occupied for e weekends, so that my mind won't start wondering off again. hmm went for my medical appt on sat. well lets not talk bout it. after which i went to the hospital to pay my friend a visit, oso at the same time to find someone to talk to. went to my grandpa's place since it has been so long since i last went. had dinner tgt with them, and a rnd of mahjong. which was not realli ideal. cos guess wad. i zha hu twice. how surprising. juz cnt realli concentrate. and maybe i mislook those tiles. sianz. somemore they play so fcukin big. to me tt is. $1 $2. so shld noe bout how much those 2 cost me.. haha? well luckily in the end my mum covered me and i lost only 10 bucks. wow she must've won quite alot. juz dun realli hav the pulling power tt night. aft tt took cabbie with my mum back home. hav to face e 4 walls again. oh ya did i mention tt i juz started my fish hobby again. ya juz feel more calm looking at thm everytime. i received a call at 2.53am. i was overjoyed. a moment of relief. i felt much better. way much.

it was sunday. i woke up. and as usuall i'll dash out to look at my fishes. see got any die anot. cos i heard e startin 2 wks if their not stable will just die. so i'll always hope i see none floating. ha..
i'm starting to miss u again. took out my books and tried to study. but it seems every half hr i study i'll spend like 15 mins stoning there, and once this happens usually my imaginations will juz take over me. and perhaps sometimes run wild. which is damn bad. called my friends out. try to keep myself occupied. evening period went over to my dad's place to have dinner. happened to be my aunt's bday too. left at bout 10pm. dad sent me home. i was feeling quite lethargic. washed up. vexed over my reports. and decided to head to bed. it was 12.30am. for the nxt subsequent hr. i kept waking up to check my phone 1.30. 2.30. 3.30. sadly my phone did not ring. i finally fell into my deep sleep.

it's monday. it's 9am. open my eyes to check my phone. no missed calls no msg. i went to wash up. fed fishy hamsy doggy. off to sch i went. it was veri difficult for me today. i tried to do my reports and presentations. 11am - 7pm. it juz cnt seem to be done. i keep going into my own world thinking of things. had dinner with classmates at timah before heading home. called fee out to hav a chat with me and oso keep me acc. shared my thoughts. felt better aft speaking my worries. it's 2.53am exactly now. 2 days alr and i've heard nothing from u. i dun need a call. perhaps juz a "i'm fine" msg would do. maybe u dun see a need to. waste money. i'll respect u. not to be so dependent. i'll try. i promise.

these lines are really hurtful.

A : if i'm seriously ill in hospital, will u still leave for overseas?
B : that depends on how serious.
A : take it like in critical condition and i want to see you?
B : erm but i already bought the tickets.
A : so will leave or not?
B : err will la.

A : if i'm in a coma will u still wait for me?
B : depends
A : wad u mean?
B : if its permanent maybe i'll move on, if temporary maybe i'll wait.

such things going into ur ears. imagine the feeling.

i'm tired.
good nitex.
i hope tmr will be a better day.

Ended my post @ 1/29/2008 02:16:00 AM

Wednesday, January 09, 2008

The company isn't you.

Ended my post @ 1/09/2008 08:29:00 PM

Thursday, January 03, 2008

haha its been ages since i last blogged, feeling kinna lazy yea. but owell i'll just start now.

juz got back 2 days ago frm my genting/KL trip.. haha. we departed on 29th dec. well i can say the trip was whole lot of fun to me, dunno wad others feel. but well unlucky me had fever thru out my holidays. :( come to think of it maybe god was partially punishing me and oso at the same time not letting my holidays go to waste, wonder why? cause my fever only shoots up middle of the night and once its daytime my temperature drops. LOL, as for the punishing part would be not listening to yung and drink more water hahaha!! my one and only pukihanna with an angelic voice haha love ya! my oh my! and so much thx for taking care of me thru out the whole period. really a heart warmer. :)

our first stop was.... KL!

checked in federal hotel not too bad to stay in. and after, the shopping BEGINS!!!

went to sungei wang, hmmm not a place i want to be at, nothing to buy. so shall not talk much here, haha. evening arrives, we were at PERTALING ST! my auntie spirit is unleashed! carrying a fake louis vuitton wallet going arnd bargaining. LOL, spent hours at the st walking to and fro. bought quite a number of stuffs. sobx but i nv buy shoe. duno why all their stocks now not nice alr. owell at least i got things i wanted. aft long hrs of shopping we settled down for a nice sumptious dinner, before making our way back to the hotel.

checked out at 1pm. took a cab to the mountains and from there taking a cable car up to genting, hai sianz tts the only i dun like part. Its like so high! but anw its e fastest way to get up oso. the queue was FREAKING long, i tot it'll take at least an hr to reach us, but in e end 20 mins oni, lol. the cable cars like so unlimited like tt. camwhored on our way up!

ITS GENTING!

wow 12 degrees is realli quite low. checked in to our rooms and guess wad, we were at e highest lvl. 28! omg!! went to walk arnd first explore the place and eat of cos. watched ALIEN vs PREDATORS. with osim chair somemore. haha so shiok!

there were so much fun and laughters, at ripley's, van helsing, indoor and outdoor theme park to the lame 4D magix motion master, we all sure did enjoy ourselves. the weather up there was great, cold and surrounded by clouds. till e last 10 sec to the new year we were alr under the open air waiting for the spectacular fireworks!

HAPPY NEW YEAR

nothing can be compared to such display mann, even the ones in my homeland.

getting out of tt area took us a mere 1 hour haha, uncivilised people just trying to squeeze their way through, so we waited for the crowd to subside abit before proceeding.

i didn't manage to eat those good food, had fever. but well still enjoyed myself alot. MISS the weather so much.

shall upload all the photos as soon as vincent sends me, as for now i have 1, which was taken when we were taking the cyclone coaster. haha

Ended my post @ 1/03/2008 04:11:00 PM