It's Christmas baby

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

hmmm thx for evryone's concern yea... appreciate it alot... well i guess things nw are much settled dwn, since thers silence in e hse.. But now......

grr National Age Group for bowling is here again, and starts nxt monday... i'm like so not prepared can.. trainings are expensive.. But e feeling of wanting to win is still burning in me! I wan to repeat history for my masters event.. but tink tis yr is abit impossible alr... but anw... no matter how bad or lousy i am, i promise i won't pull e team dwn... hope evrything goes well...

well was kept acc thru these days =) went swimming tennis sun tanning!! and doing all sorts of stuffs.. it was realli tremendous FUN FUN FUN!! thx alot.. thx for bringing back my smiles.. i realli enjoyed myself.. today aft my class which ended at 12pm.. haha went Sentosa!! LOL.. played volleyball! haha... and so coincidence the FIVB BEACH VOLLEYBALL thing was going on as well.. seeing players frm diff countries compete.. woohoo...

Ended my post @ 5/23/2007 10:55:00 PM

Sunday, May 20, 2007

Once again shattering into a million pieces.. problems came all round frm my parents.. Does a divorced parent realli hav such a wide different view? They juz dun understand what i'm going through, its all juz assumptions their having.. "my dad" said he would be open minded, and ask me to tell him evrything, and i was prepared to alr, but before i could speak up, i realised he was alr forcing me to lead a life of his his words. And again, wadever i wanted to say went down my throat. Bottling all up in me.. Just bother bout ur own family, and dun assume tt u noe me so well.

"my mum" claims tt i dun show concern for her anymore, but the fact is does she even know wad i'm doing for her... i guess not.. another assumption again.. To think on mothers' day i wanted to bring her out for dinner, but in the end whn i woke up, i realised i'm all alone at hm with my dog... i called wher was she, with her friends was her reply.. in my heart i was thinking, so did u bore them?

feeling all alone, i called each and evryone of my friends asking them whether they wanted to go out... but all were out with their family alr... All of a sudden i felt.... Do i realli have a family? If one day someone were to ask me to rate e people arnd me, relationship and friendships will definitely be above my family... Why is this so? Cos they are the people who realli understands and cares for me..

Went out alone today, took a bus to town.. i juz needed some peaceful time alone.. started walking frm far east... plugged in my mp3, and started pondering.. i was so angry at my parents at tt moment... but all of a sudden the thoughts of my parents dying flashed thru my mind, and unknowingly tears juz flowed down my cheeks.. i continued walking, and a kind lady offered my tissue.. thers still kind souls arnd tho.. a word of thx and we became by passers.. after a realli long walk of ending up at raffles hotel... i felt so lost internally, juz whn i needed u e most, u weren't ther. msged. but my phone didn't beep.

Perhaps i was realli meant to be left alone.. reaced fort canning park.. sat at the stairs looking high up, stars were shimmering brightly.. i prayed... God can u heal my heart? y muz evrything bestow upon me.. i cnt realli handle e load anymore.. i used to be hot tempered and maybe hurt my friends indirectly, but i've chnged... squash is e oni game for me to vent all my anger... i've always tried to spare a thought for evrybody.. but why cnt "others" spare a thought for me.. am i realli such a loathsome? i know there are many obstacles in life, but isn't this too many for me alr... someone juz tell me why.

Ended my post @ 5/20/2007 11:35:00 PM

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

haha this are all e pics taken on uniform outing.. haha although ther are still more to come.. i'll juz post tis few first!! hahaha

Ended my post @ 5/16/2007 12:16:00 AM

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

okiee seems like thers some prob with e blogging system alr... well nvm bout it...

lately just starting to get pretty stressed up bout sch wrk, assignments and stuffs.. they're all juz piling up like garbage!! and no matter how much i clear thm it still keeps coming in, at a faster pace eac time.. some of my friends told me tt they want to study as long as they can, and not be involved in e complicated society yet.. but in my mind i was wondering, cld u take e stress even at sch.. maybe yes if u belong to e nerdy grp... e word mugging doesn't seem veri appealing to me everytime it gets into my ear... it juz makes me slouch and lean back... thinking of every means to get over tis crisis.. and yes... one is alr approaching, its my common test! dumb shit.. to think tt i've not realli known anything much bout my modules yet... and guess wad i cnt believe its happening this yr again.. e common test wk falls during my birthday! dumb shit... for e first time in my life.. i spent my first minute of my birthday in mac studying for a paper which falls on my freaking birthday.. how pathetic can it ever get...

from young i use to tink tt wow my birthday is in june.. such a right time cos its always vacation time!! now haha wad a wishful thinking of mine... well enuff of unhppiness...

Recently.. e animal gang had a UNIFORM OUTING hahaa.. it was way cool and fun LOL... shall juz upload some pics first.. e rest haven received yet.. haha...

Ended my post @ 5/15/2007 01:06:00 AM

Thursday, May 03, 2007

okiee lets start on monday... haha.. well those are my classmates!
went for squash training.. hmm errors were all over.. grr.. i juz need some time k MR DARYL..

and yea was trained by tis new guy gary or smt.. dun realli rmb.. KNS.. so damn tough.. can realli die mann.. aft tt left alr.. haha.. too tired.. lol no lar needed to go meet friend alr.. haha for STEAMBOAT DINNER!!! at bugis ther.. HAHA.. shiok.. we started at 9.30pm like tt.. ate till 12+ haha.. thn aft tt took pics along arab steet ther.. haha cam whoring mann.. LOL

haha.. okiee.. thn aft we went EAST COAST PARK!! my god.. sat at e seaside ther and crap.. haha.. till morning... thn we cab out of e place.. LOL.. tiring tiring mann!! but my fun is not over yet... went hm slp for not long.. mr tzit yung called!! haha.. go sentosa.. yippie!! i oso dunno i tell him meet at 1.. he was ther alr.. and i err.. 1pm thn wake up..LOL cab dwn.. thn went in.. so cool mann.. we went to dolphin lagoon and underwater world!! aarrgghh... I LOVE IT!! and dumb dumb me forgot to take pics of e dolphin.. grr... haha.. anw here are e pics..

haha cool rite.. love e last one esp.. VERI NICE..!! haha.. well wanted to catch e gons of the sea thing wan, some musical fountain.. but t was FULL HOUSE! dumb dumb.. so yea.. juz slack arnd at e shore.. playing vball.. haha cnt realli see cos veri dark alr.. and well we got wet in e end.. LOL.. thx ah! haha.. washed up and left.. went to hav dinner.. and headed hm.. woohoo wad a tiring yet fun day mann!! loved it!!

Ended my post @ 5/03/2007 02:21:00 AM